OK....Now I'm Worried!!!

One of Ashton Kutcher's better movies has to be Butterfly Effect. The whole concept of one small change in the past having cataclysmic consequences in the future really made me think. Looking back in history there have been plenty of events that, if one minor detail is changed, then many situations today would be entirely different. The most interesting part of all of this is that in most of those situations those people did not know that they would become iconic for the things they did. They were not expecting to make history. Rosa Parks was not shooting for glory. Neither were the people who fought and died during the Civil Rights movement. Many of the presidents that changed history did not pass bills to become immortal, they did it because they thought it was the right thing to do.

"So far you have not said anything yet that is totally off the wall. I can agree with everything that you have said. I think that those are the types of people who should be praised; those who perform a task selflessly. But you did not come here to talk about historical figures and why you admire them. What's really on your mind?"

It is different when you know that a particular event will change your future.

"You going to tell us, or are you going to continue to pussyfoot around it?"

I have a final coming up and my ENTIRE future is riding on it

"Are you serious? I thought you were about to go into something deep. Now we have to listen to you complain about this test. I could be doing something else. I will be watching TV."

So I was accepted into grad school as a provisional student. This is because I did not have a perfect GPA coming out of undergrad, nor did I score a 1600 on the GRE. Yet I am on the path that I want to be on. I call it luck. My dad says intercessory prayer has aided me in getting to where I am. Either way, some would say that I do not deserve to have the opportunities that have been given to me. As a provisional student I have to get B's in both of my classes. I am doing fine in one class, but the other really has me worried. I have NEVER been in a position where ONE TEST decides my fate. I have no backup plan. This is the only school that I applied to, this is the only school that I am interested in attending. As it stands now, I HAVE to get an A on the final to get a B for the class. I have always been clutch under pressure.

"Except for that one time when you were playing little league baseball. You had the bases loaded and all you had to do was hit a ground ball and your team would have won. What did you do? You hit a fly ball to the pitcher. HA HA HA HA HA HA!!!!!"

Wait, I thought you were watching TV?

"Sorry."

Besides that one incident, I have always been able to come out on top.

It's weird to be having these feelings. These feelings of doubt. A dark "worry cloud" hanging over my head.

I do not worry.

I do not doubt myself.

I NEVER worry.

I NEVER doubt myself.

Well...no need to start now.

~sTeW~

The Importance of Creativity

Before we get started today, I would like to direct any newcomers to my first post. This will explain any questions that you may have. Also it will prevent you from thinking that I am COMPLETELY nuts.

"Who knows, you may be a little crazy."

With that being said, let's move on.


















Depending on what your views are, everything did not always have a "name". If you are a creationist then everything had its name from the beginning. If you believe in evolution then you think that names were given to everything once man was able to talk. Either way it took some creativity to name EVERYTHING. Fast forward to the recent times, and you see that scientist are becoming lazy when it comes to naming new species of animals. Instead of screwing with a Latin word to make a cool new name, they are naming animals based off of what they do, where they found them, or they just combine two known animals names into one. For example, scientist made a "supercat" from mixing lion and tiger DNA, thus the Liger was born. They found a squirrel that could glide through they air, so they called it a flying squirrel. Then you have the African & Asian elephant. Using this logic they should have named rottweilers "bite-the-shit-out-of-you dog", or called baboons "pink butt monkey".

"So you expect these people to come up with new and exciting names for everything they find just because you want cooler names? There are MILLIONS of different species of animals out there. No one has time for that. If they find a modified version of a more common animal, they are going to name it by its modification. That makes more sense than your crazy wordplay idea. Why do you care anyway?"

I care because the people around me have been just as uncreative as these scientist.

"I'm confused."

I always wanted a cool nickname, but I never got one. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love my name. I would make passionate love to it if I could. When I was in elementary school we were required to read a book, and the book was......Stuart Little. For about two weeks, my name was Stuart Little. I was named after a talking mouse. One of the main reasons I hated that dreaded name is because I do not spell my name like that, that "U" in the middle makes the name look lame. Whats worse is that I thought that I had escaped that terrible name, but behold that damn Michael J. Fox went out and made a movie. So I was tormented by small children....again. By that time I was old enough to toss them all down a well, but my lawyers advised against that for legal reasons.

Another terrible name was Beef Stew. This name did not come up as often, but when it did it sent people into a frenzy. People would laugh like they saw a guy get hit in the nuts on America Funniest Home Videos. I thought it absolutely sucked as a nickname, but I could not do anything to shake it.

"Well you have to admit, those names are pretty funny."

My family is a little better about nicknames, but every name they gave me do not mean anything. I would rather not divulge the nature of the names that they gave me, (and I hope they don't either) but let's just say that they made up words and stuck them together to make up names to torture me with. Thanks Mom, Dad, & Dee you have been a big help.

I have to give props to Niki.Mac. She was the first person to call me Stewy. This was in middle school WAY before Family Guy came out. Too bad it did not stick until after Family Guy dropped. The sad thing is that sometimes people do not make the Family Guy connection until they have known me for a while. Then they laugh and laugh, "You have the same name as the baby. Ha Ha Ha!!!" Idiots.

I do have one name that I am proud of. StewNasty. That is all I really need at this point in my life. I love it. Let it roll off of your tongue a few times. StewNasty. StewNasty. StewNasty. No really, say it out loud. Hopefully you will have the same appreciation for it as I do.

~sTeW~

We Got Tagged

So we were tagged.

The culprit... Adrianne

Only I will answer. Douglass is boring.

The Rules:

1. Link to the person who tagged you
2. Mention the rules in you blog
3. Tell about 6 unspectacular quirks of yours
4. Tag 6 others by linking to them
5. Leave the 6 comments letting them know you tagged them

Here goes:

1. I thrive off of chaos. I do not like for anything to be in order. My room is always relatively messy. I do not make plans for anything, I just kind of go where the wind blows me. I guess I found that making plans do not mean that they will happen. I always have an "idea" of what I want to do, but nothing is ever definite.

2. I absolutely love to be right. I get no bigger high than being right about something, it really is pitiful. Makes me think that I can tell the future; it would be cool if I could.

3. I am in the middle of doing P90x right now. Just in case you do not know what that is, P90x. I am getting pretty good results. I am not really going for size, just definition. I have the perfect body type for a really ripped physique.

4. I am a really picky eater. Its strange, because I do not dislike most foods because of how they taste, I dislike them because I do not like their texture. Anything really grainy I can not eat (grits for example). I will not go into ALL of the foods that I despise, but it is always safe to assume that I do not eat most things.

5. Continuing with the food topic; I can not taste very well. I think it is because I seared off my taste buds when I was younger. I would put extremely hot foods and drink in my mouth and it would burn pretty badly. Now, when I order food or when I cook, I need extra seasoning or extra sauce. For example, when I get a sub I have to get mayo, barbecue sauce, and what ever other kind of sauces they have for me to enjoy it. The people who make the subs always look at me like I am crazy for mixing so many flavors. I HAVE TO YOU JERKS!!!!

6. I do not wear athletic shoes anymore. There was a time when all I wore were T-mac's. I was in love with his shoes, but now I just do not wear them anymore. I still like his shoes, and I still have them all, but I am just into casual shoes now; Adidas, Puma, ect.

Well since I am new to the blogging community, I do not have anyone to tag. I can not just tag a random person. That would be weird.

~sTeW~